I spend all this time talking about how much I enjoy being here, but I am not giving due credit to how hard living abroad is. Its exciting and fun, but extremely lonely. I am at this frustrating point where I can't speak Chinese well enough to form deep relationships with others. I refuse to hang with expats because, well...my purpose is to be in China...and speak Chinese. However, this goal, as thrilling as it is, has its consequences. Its definitely hard being here completely on my own. You all know I had this crazy social schedule jam packed with parties, friends, dinner, drinks, and chillin (in one evening). Here, life is so much different, and I'm completely isolated from my former existence in New York. I don't really have friends here like I have in NY or even the states...I hate sitting in my apartment so I spend much of my time on my own walking around, shopping, and just exploring my area. Its starting to get old and I'm realizing how much I had back home. I feel like I'm missing so many experiences, although I am having my own, its just not the same. To my friends, family and boyfriend-I miss you.